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輝いても温室の中
駆け足で恥多き時代は
嫌な記憶だけ残して流れた
他人事のように
もう思い出しはしない

五体は満足で
家族は穏やかで
傷ひとつ無い生い立ち
それが負い目に感じられた
不幸ではない? それだけ

私は幸せだよ?
寝床もあるし水も餌もあるし
そんなの寂しいと言うキミの中に
驕りと憐れみを見たんだ
誰もが望むから、私はあえてそれを拒んだんだ

友達は皆追い出し 忘れ去ってしまった
恋人はもういない 殺して埋めてしまった
ふと思い出す在りし日の歌
抜けない毒の棘のように
微かな痛みだけ残して

本能の気紛れで
こんな私に手を差し伸べたヒト
「この手を離さないで」
繋いだ手の中に手首から先しか残されていなくても
それが私だと思って

もしかしたら私は幸せになれたのかもしれない
でも思い出さぬように
凍らせて
しずめて

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どれだけの好意を足蹴にしてきたのかはわからないが、その当時は確かにうざいと感じた
その甲斐あって、いまではすっかり孤独だ

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The Song of My Past Days
自嘲の歌

I lived a full life then,
But it was in the glasshouse.
The such springtime of my life has gone so fast,
It left me onry sad memories.
I don't feel reality that days.
Maybe, I will never remembered that time again.

My body does no have bad things.
My family are friendly.
My life is not bad,
They said to me you don't have unhappy things.
But I could not say I am happy.

I was given the enough things.
I had a bed, a foods and water to drink,
Just it was enough as keeping my life.
You said to me, it's sad life.
But you were thinking I was poor people,I knew.
If every one want such a situation,
I refused you.

I broke off relations of all friends.
I lost my dearest lover,
I killed her and buried her deeply.
The song for past days occur to my mind,
it give me a little pain.
That looks like a thorn which cannot remove away.

That day, you reached out your hand to me,
It was of your whim and involuntary, I think so.

"Keep holding my hand"

If there is my hand which is not perfect style in your hand,
please believe it's me.

I think that it was chance I will be happy.

however,
that memory
was froze,
and was sank,
by me.

(How much did I refuse good wills for me?
I have already forgot such things.
So, I am really loneliness.)

A Lyric for English by akari-A

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[ 中文訳 ]

就算再耀眼也是在?室之中
慌慌張張又充滿屈辱的時代
只剩下討厭的記憶殘留又逝去
彷彿別人的事情一般
我早已不去回憶

五體健全
家族安穩
毫髮無傷的成長
讓人感覺像是被施捨了
不算不幸?? 不過如此

我很幸福??
不但有床可睡也有足?的水和食物
那樣太寂寞了 ?這麼?
我在?的深處看到了驕傲及憐憫
無論誰都?望如此,所以我偏要拒?

朋友們全都被?出去 然後忘得一乾二淨了
戀人早就已經不在了 因為被我殺掉埋起來了
突然想起過往日子的歌
彷彿拔不去的有毒荊棘
只留下微弱的疼痛

因本能的心血來潮
對這樣的我伸出手的那人
「不要放開手」
雖然相連的手中除了手腕什麼都不剩
我想那就是我

或許我已經習慣幸福了也?不定
不過就像想不起來一樣
冰凍著
平靜著

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